low key weekend

ugh. assaulted by happy families of two and three kids everywhere in our ramblings and parambulations today, and while I wish them joy it was a knife in my heart for some reason on this particular spin around the planet. I'm practicing the serenity prayer today, I DO NOT WANT WHAT I HAVE NOT GOT only it's not a very serene prayer, it's a desperate gasping thing more suited to despair than zen oneness with my lot in the world. Ungrateful little thing, me, and I'll come back in all humility in a day or two. Doesn't help to have Wicked Little Town from Hedwig and the Angry Inch stuck in my head since Thursday night. It's been scratching at the back of my eyes, tears that want in.

Whisper by Rose Robbins